“ The flapping of a single butterfly's wing today produces a tiny change in the state of the atmosphere. Over a period of time, what the atmosphere actually does diverges from what it would have done. So, in a month's time, a tornado that would have devastated the Indonesian coast doesn't happen. Or maybe one that wasn't going to happen, does.“— Chaos theory
How does this sound? Not really easy to believe at a first reading….. But I’m convinced just a small change in the initial conditions can drastically change the long-term behavior of a system. God does play dice!!!
long time since i could cajole myself into writing in here. Life has been a roller-coaster ride the past month. There were days when i felt i was on top of the world with everything under control and life moving along at a nice little beat. Now, its time for days to believe and hope this is the lowest i get to fall.
Tasted my first coffee today at Tarams. it was a new kinda feeling goin with a group of friends at six in the morning to tarams and tasting my first coffee and a puff. Friends. The greatest achievement i can boast of.
I hate this time of the year. The time when i need to be giving the bigget tests of the semester. This semester has been particularly bad.Ended up getting raped in the B-Slot end sem even after studying for it the whole night. This is the closest I’ve come to getting a cup and I can now only hope it is close but not really one.
I had dreams. Grand dreams of huge dams built by me. Grand dreams of wonderful bridges built by me. Grand dreams of wonderful skyscrapers, tunnels , workshops .. all built by me.All of them, wonderful solutions conceived by me. The grandest dream that I could be doing all this as a civil engineer from IITM. I have since woken up to face the stark naked reality staring in my face. I cant be an engineer of the kind i dreamt of . Atleast not here. I had dreamt of ingenious solutions flowing from my head. But no. The system kills the genius.
But then, the system works for some . Everyone is not effected by the system as I am. There ARE successful people around. The same system that works for them doesnt work for me. The system has rules. the system demands compliance to the rules. Most successful people go along with the system,bend themselves to the systems needs and end up trumps. There are people who bend the system to their needs and taste success.
Do I sound like Howard Roark?
Talking of Howard Roark, Reva in Ram Gopal Varma’s “Naach” is such a poor take off on Howard Roark. Ramu starts off well by drawing sharp contrasts between the two lead characters a la the Fountainhead. When someone is trying to base a character on some character as popular and as different as Howard Roark’s, he needs to be careful not to dilute it in the process. Ramu fails. I shall remember this film for a long time for two reasons— Antra Mali’s skin show and the injustice to Howard Roark. Hope Ramu’s “Sarkar” doesnt spoil the grace of “Godfather“.
